We have three dining speeds:
Grandfather: Military quick
Diet is varied
Sushi and sashimi
Drinks coffee and green tea
Daughter: Moderate
Sushi and sashimi
Some coffee, power drinks
Granddaughter: Very slow
loves ramen noodles
Crispy chicken with mashed potatoes
Favors Cucumber sushi, sometimes with avacado
Coffee and soft drinks
Grandfather and Daughter adjust to the foods of friends when visiting
Granddaughter gets finiky
Of course, there is more...But.. 
, Chocolate is mighty nice. 
Book (based on Tibetan Book of the Dead)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Psychedelic_Experience
Should be easy to get.
LSD still available? Most probably even though a class A drug in UK...
You might be able to find a friend who can guide you IF going ahead. A good idea.
Magic Mushrooms are currently treated the same as heroin or LSD and are class A drugs but very recently (Oct 2021) the government was looking to change this due to the apparent benefits from treating certain illnesses with psilocybin and psilocin, the active components of Magic Mushrooms. These include chronic depression and PTSD. The research is ongoing but they do seem to be proving useful in the medical field.
https://www.wildfooduk.com/mushroom-guide/liberty-caps/
You seem to be heading this way. Let us know how you get on...
May the Force Be with you 
lobster
Gate gate paragate parasamgate, bodhi svaha
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heart_Sutra
Which means;
How many ears does Spock have? Three - a left ear, a right ear, and Space, the Final Front Ear (similar to the third aye Kaptain)
Gone. Goner. Most definitely beyond space, time and life extension...

lobster
Andor tell's a story I feel is relevant to struggle and oppression and it does it with nuance rather than black and white morality.
If you no longer watch fiction, fair enough. If you do then it can infom engaged Buddhism. Sometimes. Maybe.
lobster
What's the difference between a Vitamin and a hormone?
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You can't make a vitamin....
(Don't blame me - Benny Hill Joke, 1976).
federica