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Broken
lobster
Crusty Veteran
in Meditation
Are you broken?
Not yet? Break 'the self' regularly!
As we know [dharma basics] the so called S-Elf that inhabits our being is a flawed/mad monkey. It may just be me but you may realise it is U2 ...
However [fanfare] there is a free part of all of us. Boundless, unfettered, naked awareness/mindfulness that we can engage.
Engage
Lama Picard 
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Yes...I got a taste of such freedom yesterday and maybe the day before.
Today, it's back to well, kind of a low mood - lack of sleep etc.
Gawd, I've been broken (big and little) so many times, I wonder who's got
the dustpan and broom.
You are beginning to enter 'the stream', seems good to me ...
Live long and prosper
Vulcan Dharma
“If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you got to stop living" -- Vargas
I generally use writing and art to explore my self and mind. Both are usually violent, grotesque, and self-sabotaging. Even as I currently work through my mental illness and try to get better my style of art hasn't changed... It's just plain fun. I am reminded of Tarantino... and Tantric deities
It is hard for lots of people to accept dark parts of themselves. So we separate and abstract those things...blow them out of proportion so we can look at them clearly and recognize their futility
I'm no longer sure there is such a thing as a whole and healthy self, or a broken self. There is just clear awareness and focus which is only peripherally aware of a thought and feeling stream, at this time in the morning anyway.
The more I focus on becoming aware of my thoughts and feelings, the more emotional I become as a being, and I notice emotions leading the natural flow of thoughts. Often I am neutral, neither positive nor negative in mood. Then sometimes I find thoughts leading me to a new mood, often worry based. When I consciously apply Thich Nhat Hanh's philosophy of inviting seeds of happiness that the reverse happens, that I notice my thoughts leading me to happier moods.
Mindfulness leads to concentration leads to insight. It is surprising how much of the contents of our mind is driven by the klesha's, unbeneficial impulses at heart.