I'm going to ramble a bit, please bear with me.
I have not felt like I've had a home since 2003, when I left Dongducheon, South Korea. Being there profoundly changed me. It was my first exposure to Buddhism. The culture, people, and food just felt right. Everything resonated with me. Since coming back to the United States, I have felt very unsettled. I don't much care for the American lifestyle, especially with this culture of hate that we are nurturing.
If I was a single guy with no kids, this would be an easy decision. I would simply move to Dongducheon. However, I am married with 3 young kids and I don't want to disrupt their lives. Especially since my wife really likes where we live.
I'm feeling stuck in a place that is not my home and I really don't like it. I'm a federal employee, which I am really resenting (given my previous experience as government property in the US Army).
Apparently this post has gone from ramble to complaining. I apologize for the complaining, I try to not do that. I just really needed to get this out of my system. Thanks for following along.
Gassho, with gratitude