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As I have mentioned in other posts, I have a severe mental illness. Thanks to the miracle of modern medicine, I have a somewhat clearer mind. However, the same medication causes an unusually high amount of lethargy. In spite of that, I manage to hold down a decently paying and somewhat meaningful job.
Unfortunately, my personal life is a bit of a wasteland. I don't have much energy for socializing, and I find being in crowds extremely draining. Simple tasks like cleaning and cooking seem to take considerable effort. I literally have to take a rest after taking a bath. Most people don't understand why I don't do a better job of managing my personal life, even those few family members who know about my illness.
My spiritual journey began almost 20 years when my father almost casually remarked that I was selfish. I pondered this, and decided he wasn't exactly right. I was, however, quite self-absorbed. (I'm still in my own head too much, but that's another discussion.) So I began pursuing Buddhist spiritual practice, and I think I've made some progress, though in fits and starts.
But that was a struggle against my limitations. Is this lethargy and apathy something I should strive against? Or should I accept that I have to deal with a disability and medication side effects, even if others can't understand those limits?