I am just starting my own path. The beginning of my journey began with the most devastating event of my life, a scant 3 months ago. I will not bog down the discussion further on that subject, for I suspect that many folks here came to their own studies for similar reasons. Still, my suffering is unique; if only to me ;-).
My dilemma at the moment is my propensity to approach new experiences in life with a great deal of nervous energy. This served me well in my youth as a rock & roll drummer, as a songwriter, as a 'party animal'. BUT-
I currently find myself drifting away from my initial need for the calm of meditation because, well, it has already "cured" the surface problems. YET- I recognize that this is a delusion. I need to continue my practice. I am still meditating regularly, daily; somewhat clumsily...
I skated for decades on wave after wave of self aggrandizing situations, surrounding myself with like minded personalities. Hence, I developed a deep seated habit of getting overly excited about every new experience that came along-- resulting of course, in the inevitable crash of "oops- this wasn't it after all". So, I'm reaching out to ask--
Is it possible for an "excitable boy" (thank you Warren Zevon) to be centered in the Buddhist way?
Thank you in advance for your thoughtful responses. ~Tom~