I loved this article by Pema Chödrön in Lion’s Roar, really connected with it...
I think she’s got the basic starting point exactly right, we all have the instinct to eliminate our flaws, and she has seen the different types of laziness very well. It’s something I am quite familiar with because the last few years I’ve had more of an opportunity to be lazy, and I’ve felt quite connected to being comfortable and easy on the soft cushions of my couch with my iPad. So maybe this is a wakeup call, to live more consciously.
Recently I did a kind of in-house meditation retreat, where whenever I would remember I would spend time being in the present moment, focussing on my out-breath. And I would be surprised that I couldn’t muster the same meditative energy as I usually do, my limit for spending time like that was a paltry 10 minutes without diverting the mind with some kind of internet content.
So you may find when you start looking into your habit patterns that making the switch to meditative living is not so easy.