A few nights ago I had a dream, in which two voices were standing over me and one said to the other, “he is still selfish”. Then my bliss disappeared. When I woke up, I still felt that, kind of disconnected from life. So it caused me to start thinking about selfishness, and how it lived within me.
I had a long look at the patterns of my life, and I came to the conclusion I usually only did things that were to my benefit, or things where I had an obligation of some sort. It’s a consequence of economic thinking and being logical, and it’s a long standing issue. I reckon a lot of people who have had partners and children get connected more to other people.
A search on access to insight about selfishness turned up very little, just a few hits in translated articles. It’s a shame because I would have liked to hear the Buddha’s words on the subject. It’s worth meditating on, I feel, since it is common in this day and age, and so many people have more than they need but they spend little of their time on unselfish pursuits.
You live, you take care of the self, your body, a home, work. These things all follow on from each other. In a way that is a simple life. But when you live from basic needs and you don’t extend yourself into the abundance that is available around you, you also fail to give from your abundance. Some people have riches of time, others have riches of thought.
And what are the things that stop us? Little fears, of being thought foolish. Time to set them aside and be more.
Merry season’s greetings,