I had a practice a layship until HH Dalai Lama condemned aci Buddhism under micheal roach. I left now i feel no connection to dharma and need to reach out. I am tibetan buddhist. Am i a untouchable now. Every time i mention my past local and online teachers want nothing from me. I join online but all them want a donation or pay for classes. Isn’t that against dharma against buddhas teachings.
I do not like aci Buddhism because i differ on beliefs because i believe in HH dalia lama view, but i hold their teachers and group with compassion but i am not a idiot.
My psych team told me to reach out to the religious community. Morgantown wv buddhist groups are a joke , their small beginner book study groups. I want a layship a practice a true connection . How do i connect when the locals see me as untouchable. I go to Pittsburgh ect but i am low income and have circumstances and theirs COVID.
Also due to my lucid dream ability a dream and waking experience i had , i know my pet dog is a student and teacher of mine from past lives, and according to aci buddhist teacher he’s a buddha enamination and here for a depressed person. I promised this teacher this dog i would be something in tibetan Buddhism. I wanna study. If it wasnt for my disablity, low income an circumstances i would try places were i could. Become ordained monstatic person. I. Just dont know what to do. I need religious connection. I need spiritual friends outside of Internet forums and online groups. I am not going back to aci due to conflicting beliefs. I wish them well it wasnt for me, i dont wanna switch religions and find a church i am buddhist, i am tibetan buddhist. The local tibetan group I believe is defunct and anyways is one those joke groups not teaching much of dharma just books to sell. Monstaries to sell.
Any help on this. I dont mind online if it was legit in tibetan Buddhism and free no donations but at this time i cant find that online . I need help i. Am asking for help.