Not sure if this is supposed to be here. But after tripping LSD in 2009 I became extremely self-aware and I developed this realization that I exist and somehow I exist while reality isn’t logical. It’s like I woke up from a dream and everything was just socially constructed. However I panicked and developed some serious PTSD and fear. Fast forward 13 years later after having some “reality breaks” that felt like depersonalization/derealization. I am seeing that the fear inside is that I exist in a situation that doesn’t make any sense to me. This scares me and I start to panic and think I’m in a simulation, or panic around the fact that I’m existing without knowing how or having an understanding of reality in absolute terms.
However recently I have been forced to face these fears. I just can’t live in fear constantly. I have practiced meditation and read about Buddhism — how would a Buddhist approach this? Can anybody relate?