Has anyone else had a difficulty with spontaneity arising from Buddhism? I find that the processes of studying the lore of the Buddha, and of meditation too, kind of moves me away from spontaneity. I just noticed this today, but I’ve been aware in silence without expressing my spontaneity.
But things like absorbing a sutra or an hours meditation on the cushion seem to make me very restful, which I think is a property that a lot of Buddhists have in common. So I was wondering about how others experience this, do you find that your impulsiveness is reduced and that your spontaneity is quietened?