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So... I was married for almost ten years. A few years into my marriage I discovered Buddhism, and felt that it saved me in many ways. I read and sought teachings and deepened my practice throughout the years. Ultimately, I ended up divorced. My ex-wife kind of lost her mind and ended up dating a mysogynistic, women-beating, meth-addicted psychopath. I took my two children and moved on with my life, leaving her to her own devices. Well, her father inherited close to a quarter of a million dollars and she's now trying to get some visitations with our children. My wife and I had starting going to a Christian church with our children for appearances a while ago. I am now employed by said church and have increasingly started to feel that between the people there that have lovingly accepted my family, and the seemingly undeniable turn of events that have benefited my family and I, that maybe there is something legitimate here. I was raised Catholic and lost faith in that establishment YEARS ago, but this feels legitimate. I fully believe in the Buddhist teachings, but now I feel that there may be a god. I feel that I'm being called upon to have faith and that there is a god, one whom I have denied for years. I still meditate on a daily basis and provide water offerings, but I wonder if god can exist in a Buddhist's life. I was so sure about what I believed after I found Buddhism, I still believe that meditation, karma, reincarnation, and the Dharma are the way, but I feel an undeniable draw here that I can't ignore. I'm immensely confused by this turn of events and don't know what to think of it.