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It's far more comfortable, and far less effort to stay with what you know than to explore unchartered territory and learn new habits, while shedding old ones.
Take @lobster's analogy of noodles and allow me to expand.

GENUINE AUTHENTIC BEEF PHO
Ingredients
for 8 servings

10 lb mixed beef leg bones (4.5 kg), shin, knuckle and marrow bones
12 oz ginger(340 g), 2 large hands, halved lengthwise
1 head large garlic, halved crosswise
4 kg medium yellow onion(4 kg), halved lengthwise
8 sticks cinnamon
¼ cup whole black peppercorn
6 pods whole star anise
1 lb beef brisket(455 g)
kosher salt
¼ cup fish sauce(60 mL), plus more to taste
1 lb boneless sirloin steak(455 g)
1 lb flat rice noodle(455 g), cooked according to package instructions
FOR SERVING

2 cups fresh mung bean sprouts(200 g)
1 small red onion, very thinly sliced lengthwise
1 jalapeño, sliced into thin rounds
1 large bunch fresh thai basil
1 lime, cut into wedges
hoisin sauce
siracha

PREPARATION
Place the beef bones in a large stock pot, then add enough cold water to cover by 2 inches (5 cm). Bring the mixture to a boil over high heat and cook for 10 minutes to blanch the bones and remove any impurities.
Set a rack in the upper third of the oven and preheat the broiler.
Drain the bones in a colander and rinse under cold running water. Return the blanched bones to the stockpot.
Meanwhile, arrange the ginger, garlic, and onions cut-side up on a rimmed baking sheet and broil on high until the aromatics are deeply charred in spots, 5 minutes. Remove from the oven and add to the stockpot with the bones.
Meanwhile, combine the cinnamon sticks, peppercorns, and star anise in a medium skillet over medium-high heat and toast, shaking the pan occasionally, until the spices are darkened in spots and extremely fragrant, about 5 minutes. Add the toasted spices to the stockpot.
Season the brisket liberally with salt and add it to the stockpot.
Fill the pot with enough cold water to cover everything by 1 inch (2 cm). Bring to a boil over high heat, then reduce the heat to medium to maintain a gentle simmer, skimming off and discarding any fat that floats to the top as needed, until the brisket is fork-tender, 2-3 hours.
Using tongs, transfer the brisket to a plate and let cool completely. Refrigerate the brisket until ready to serve.
Continue to simmer the broth to get as much flavor out of the bones as possible, 3-4 hours more.
Using tongs, remove and discard the bones and aromatics. Slowly strain the broth through a fine mesh strainer set over a large pot. Skim and discard the fat from the broth, then stir in the fish sauce. Taste and add more as desired.
Thinly slice the brisket. Very thinly slice the raw sirloin steak against the grain.
Divide the noodles among 6-8 large bowls, then top with the brisket and raw steak. Ladle the hot broth over the noodles and meat and serve immediately with the bean sprouts, onion, jalapeño, Thai basil, lime wedges, hoisin sauce, and Sriracha alongside.

BOMBAY BAD BOY POT NOODLE

Peel back aluminium foil lid.
Fill with boiling water to mark.
Allow to stand for 3 minutes.
Stir, adding more water if wished.
Allow to stand for 2 more minutes,
Add sauce.
Enjoy!

See? So much simpler to take the easy route.
But at the end of it, are you more satisfied? or a little self-critical for having succumbed to the same old crap, and avoided the tougher route of the healthier option?
The sense of achievement and satisfaction.... not there, is it?
Ugh.
So tomorrow... More Pot noodle, or.... shall we start the prep?

I get drunk about once every six months just to remind myself why I don’t do it anymore!
🤔

I sit here clearing my mind like trying to scoop water out of a sandy hole too close to the lake's edge. It keeps filling and with thoughts that cause suffering.

I sit here busying myself with reading and videos and experiences but I feel the shade of my self-oriented lens making everything seem darker.

I sit here providing myself allowance for how I feel and radiating acceptance and compassion but the calm that arises feels like an unwanted touch of a repulsive kind.

I am finding myself doing these things halfheartedly because in this moment there is part of me drawn to the suffering.
Part of me wants to hurt.

Why? I have to meditate further on this.

In this moment my method is not robust and I am split between being OK and not OK with it. A sort of paralysis in the midst of suffering.

I want to honor myself but also return to the path quickly.
I want to honor myself but remain here in the suffering for a little longer.

What are your methods when found in this type of space?

Back to the breath...back to the suffering...back to the breath...back to the suffering...back to the...