I have a tendency to experience the same event twice. Once intellectually and then days, weeks, months or even years later, I understand it emotionally. It is an epiphany both times. So I'm sitting with this idea of 'I' and can very clearly see that I am not the same 'I' that yagr was seven years ago. Science tells us that every cell in my body has died and been replaced every seven years so it's a good starting point for me. So there I am accepting that I am not that I at all. Eventually, after a bunch of explanation that is too much for me to type, I start looking at the different me from one moment to another. Then, between moments... then, I experience understanding emotionally, then existential crisis.
What in the hell is keeping 'me' together? I have been sitting here trying to gain some clarity for about six weeks...I got nothing. Anyone want to help?