This question is practically moot, because what's done is done. But I wanted to get your perspectives on it.
Paraphrasing from memory, Pete Townshend once said that he didn't like himself for being an alcoholic because it took him off the path for years. But then he realized that alcoholism (and subsequently what he learned from recovery) WAS the path, or at least his path.
So what do you think? Are those years off the path wasted years, do you forgive yourself as conditions not being ripe...even though intellectually you already understood? Or do you still harbor some disappointment in yourself?