My entire practice has been tumbled down by anger and an overall sense of failure because I cannot go through a certain group of exams. As a Psychology student -haha- I find it appalling how little control I have over anger and negative emotions when facing adversity -not even real adversity, it is not that I'm drowning in a river or being shot at- particularly when it has to do with long-term goals which require accomplishing or jumping through certain loops of fire.
I understand that meditiation is a great way to deal with this. But I sometimes think something else could complement it. Anonymous Angryholics?
I've reached the point that maybe a heavy scholastic and aim-the-questions-to-kill model could not be my cup of tea. Also that meditation is non-negotiable, just like brushing your teeth. If you are too lazy to do it, yeah you might have won some "time" by losing a lot more idling and procrastinating. The bad breath of not venting the monkey's cage.
Right now I might seem all calm and thoughtfu but while under the trance my personal blend of Bhairavi spice I looked and behaved like a ...